Honest to goodness!
You know, I started blogging to share funny stories about my girls, share crafts and my love of all things creative, and most importantly...have an outlet to share my love for God. Before I started blogging I was virtually anonymous. I remember friends trying to hunt me down from high school to invite me to our 15 year reunion. No one could fine me! But then I was sucked in by the vortex of the webby world and I suddenly found myself on FB and with this here blog.
I was skeptical initially because the safety of my children was everything to me. I had seen other blogs with cute code names for their kids and husbands, some blogs who did not have any photos on them, etc. I knew that whatever I put out there would become permanently...out there. I knew it and I have been incredibly careful. And in all honesty, I just assume that people who visit me here are just like me...somewhat normal. ;) They see photos of my kids and tell me they are beautiful or sweet or funny. I do the same on other blogs. This is a wonderful community of people who share their lives publicly.
But when I got spam on a post I wrote about a year ago referencing my girls doing things that no words should be ever written about anyone's children...the rage of a mama lioness began an emotion in me so primal that I was even a little scared about where those emotions took me. Even now I am carefully choosing my word so that no traffic will be directed towards this blog that is UNWANTED traffic.
In those moments, as I read those horrific words, I knew that this blog was not worth more than the safety of my children. And know this. I am not overreacting. I know that I could put a spam filter on my blog. I know that I could have it where I need to give approval for every comment. That is not it.
My concern lies in the fact that innocent photos of my girls could be a source of evil, psychotic delight for someone and there is nothing I can do about it except remove photos that I innocently wanted to be a legacy for my kids. This was for them to see what I have written, made, done, etc. To have the ability to go back in time and read words written from me that I would not be able to commit to memory. And this is also for me too. I have met incredible people along this journey. I have made wonderful friends. My word, my first Christmas card this year was from a bloggy friend...thanks sweet Prudy).
But what do you do? What do I do? Do I just assume it was icky spam and let it go? Do I refocus this blog? I love crafts and I love to write. But I love my kids more than anything else. And perhaps I am being overly sensitive but do you blame me? What would you do? I don't feel my girls are in danger but it sickens me to think they could be a source of interest for a VERY WRONG person.
I am just curious about the thoughts you all have. Again, I realize so much of this is not in my control. But I guess I was so upset by it that I have really not sorted it out in my own head and wondered what you all think.
I love this blog and I love all of you. You encourage me, inspire me and amaze me. And I value your opinion.
So please help me by giving me some insight and thoughts.